Long time no post.I have atrophy in my left hand, no I am not just saying that, it is clinically verified, and do you know what? It is not getting any better. It is a right nuisance when I am peeling vegetables as it my grip that is the problem as well as diminished feeling. It also does other wierd things from time to time such as sieze up completly so that the fingers have to be prized open. I have not thought nor worried about neuromuscular diseases in a long time, but then I noticed a dent in my face on the same side as my bad hand. I started the old anxiety trip again and then thought perhaps it is just that I have lost weight, or it is ageing. I started thinking about my left hand though, and wondering whether Multiple Sclerosis would feel just the same, and I suppose it would. Thing is I am pretty certain I don't have MS. I do have damaged nerves though, good old fashioned mechanical damage, as with my joints.I don't self test anymore, that was part of an obsessive compulsive ritual, I don't stick my tongue out and watch it twitch. When I slur my speech (and I do) I think it is because I am either tired or anxious, which are good enough reasons for anybody to do that. It's not that I have not had sever bouts of anxiety since I last posted to this list, but it has to be said that the focus of that anxiety has shifted, to somewhat more realistic concerns, such as mounting debt, finishing my PhD, not being ripped off by the garage. Now here's the thing, your car develops a problem, you take it to the garage and unlike Dr's they start out by telling you the worst it could be, and suggesting what it will cost for them to fix it. You don't believe them though do you, because they have an investment in charging you as much as they can get away with.The moral of the tale is, that even if the weakness is genuine, and in most cases it won't be, the likelihood of it being the worst you fear is astronomically remote, just like the possibility I might be struck by lightning before I get to press the ........
