DesertKnight
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Hey everybody! I hope you are enjoying the change of seasons and gearing up for the holidays! I've been away for a couple of weeks and wanted to stop by to say things are going great. Two things I've noticed:1) Went on a fishing trip mid month. Three days of guided fishing, reeling in 30 in, 10 pound fish. Casino in the evenings, big meals, good friends....no twitching. Oh, I noticed it a few times, but for four days I forgot all about BFS. This solidifies to me how much my particular symptoms are tied to anxiety / hypersensitivity / hyperawareness of my body. Also, no weakness (obviously) as one cannot stand on a boat tossing about in 40 mph winds while reeling in huge fighting fish one after the other for 3 consecutive days with any form of real weakness. 2)When I fully realized that none of what I was experiencing was ALS, MS, or anything serious for that matter, I notice twitches less and less. I have a bucketload of neurological symptoms but they are related to a spine that has two curves in it measuting 50 degrees apiece, spinal stenosis, and two herniated disks. I think its funny that I have worried so intensively for years about the "mystery illnesses" while virtually ignoring the potentially serious nature of my back problems. I have had three doctors warn me that there is the potential I could be facing a spinal fusion from my lower cervical spine to my sacrum...but that thought doesn't bother me at all. I have total peace about it. "If it has to happen, it happens" is my perspective. Its always been that invisible boogey-man under my bed that's captured my thoughts and anxieties. Anyways, I'll stop rambling! I hope you all have a blessed Thanksgiving! And for those of you still drowning in the ocean of anxiety, please know you are not alone. You're not the only one. I'm living proof that the beast can be tamed. Take care, all of you~Frances
Ashley